The Transformation of My Life - 1

Whenever I think of posting something new in my blog I think meticulously about the topic that I should write  about to share with everyone not wanting to be whimsical or random. But today, I am not keeping any inhibitions about my writing and sitting with my laptop I decided to write as spontaneously as my thoughts come. One reason for this might be the environment under which I am living nowadays. I am in my final year doing a very fine course in Information Technology and as the usual course of action for final year students this point of time coincides with the placement season. At the very first day of joining college, this placement season was thought of with a unique awe and wonder making me take a firm and highly inspired resolution to channelize all of my youthful energy and determination to single goal of getting placed in the best company possible trying my level best to do so. Basically, this placement season was the very reason for which I became the student of Anna University. 

To fill you in about my history, I was a very normal student studying in Delhi and then Kanpur during my school days aspiring to take up my higher education just like my other classmates. But, as fate would have it my father got his inevitable transfer to a very unknown and suspicious place like Chennai. Not that my fate was sealed just because my family had to go there. I was free to decide whether I wanted to stay there with them or go over to that place where my classmates went. But, with the only difference that I didn't make an informed use of my freedom of decision. This might imply that I took a wrong decision. But, let me make it very clear that I do not think that this was a wrong decision. A wrong decision can lead to many other unwanted consequences. For example, in my case, I could have taken admission to a college which in no way suited my abilities or what I thought I deserved. At least I can be thankful for that. But, what I didn't know at that time was that I was choosing a college in Chennai. Or, to be more specific, the most sought after college in south India. Yes, note the words south India.

I was just a kid when I first came to Chennai. Yes, a nineteen year old kid who had not experienced the feeling of being left out alone as a odd-man-out in a group of people. The moment I entered Anna University, this prestigious college invited me to become an esteemed member of the engineering batch of Chemical Engineering. I even joined one week classes of that batch. But, fate had something else stored for me and finally it made me land in the world of simple Masters in Information Technology. There were several reasons that made me choose that as my final option. First, it was all about Information Technology, the field where I always wanted to go since I gained my consciousness. This was way too irresistible an offer. Second, I was very near to my parents and could easily avoid the unnecessary hassles of staying in hostel and tolerating the so called horrible mess food along with other complications of the earnest desire to be at home with my family during festivals or any other holidays by travelling so long a distance to Chennai from Delhi not withstanding and ignoring the advantages that a hostel life can provide (A sad realization made by me countless times). Third, everybody in our new neighborhood had gawked at me with their mouth open when they came to know about my association with Anna University not believing their ears and consistently making awesome remarks about my extraordinary fortune making me and my family(literally) force to think that somehow I had reached the after-life heaven with a direct association with the Almighty without dying !!! Jokes apart, certain over-zealous people had sincerely made intense requests to not even consider the thought of rejecting Anna University in our remotest of thoughts. We, being new to Chennai and Anna University sincerely believed them and earnestly made the final decision of going for this course in this college supported by the highly flattering all India rank of College of Engineering displayed in leading websites and magazines at that time. 

So, that is how I ended up being a prestigious member of this prestigious university which is considered to be no less than the elite IITs. As an obvious afterthought, I began dreaming of being in a highly reputed and so called dream company one day as a result of being a CEGian. And, the point to transform that dream to reality has come now at present spanning full four years (a very long time indeed) from that Anika to this Anika. That Anika was a fresher that had just come out of the school environment being a timid and not-so-sure of herself girl without any knowledge of how should she live her life but had been ready to just go with the flow. This Anika now doesn't want to go with the flow but wants to understand her capabilities and end up doing something that allows her to balance everything that matters. That 'everything' includes little things that amount to a successful life, which, are often ignored by most but are the most important to me in an inexplicable manner.

Now, when I look at myself, I clearly do not want to do something which I cannot do happily. By this, I did not mean that I doubt my capability which I always believed myself to have even when I scored above ninety percent in my class twelfth till now but just that being a part of a dream company is not everything, its just the only thing. Your priorities change with time and what is most important for me is to live my life as a complete human being. 

That said, now I start doubting whether I will get even a mediocre company or not going by what suitable knowledge I have to do so and of course by spending my time writing blogs and relatively wasting my time while all my friends are busy preparing for their placements. Somehow, several other things start seeming so important at once when you actually are supposed to do the most important task which is automatically being ignored.

This was what I think has happened in my life in these four years from school to college. But, there is more to it than what it seems to be. And, definitely there will be more to come but there are certain other facts that I would like to mention to make this blog post complete. 
To be Continued.