Whenever I encounter any situation which provokes me to describe myself the first picture that comes into my mind is a book. I am a fond reader and the way certain activities or objects excite some people in a special way, I can say that I am blessed to feel the same way when it comes to books. I do not mention only the text books as I get irked when that seems to portray an image of a girl who is no good at anything but just excelling in her studies. I admit that this might be true for me but that seems to be taken for granted with respect to me. I am a human being and I thank God for letting me sustain an interest in creative activities like reading and writing and consider myself lucky to be living with this quality. But then I wonder what I would have been doing if not this. What do other girls of my age who are equally good at studies and under similar situations like mine (middle class with limited pocket money) spend their time doing ? I seriously don't have any idea as I am not in touch with any such people or even if I was given such an opportunity I failed to maintain a certain level of interest in order to sustain a suitable relationship to gain insight into their activities. So the point comes to 'interest'. I am not 'interested' in anything other than reading and writing. And to be honest while I was in my native place I was just a kid living with what who I naturally am with no idea what I had been doing or what needed to be done. The above mentioned thoughts never entered my mind and now when I do think in this way I feel as if I am sitting in a remote part of the world with no connection to what actually is happening around me and suddenly one day the door to the 'real' world will open and I will find myself wondering at what I had been missing all this time. No, I do not blame my current position because this perhaps is the best thing that I could ask for as I have done a job which is very difficult even for the strongest. But the drawback that keeps on hitting me time and again are my unanswered questions or my disability to find a way to eradicate my foolishness and be dynamic enough to find those answers right here right now.
To come back to my original point I have been and still am a fervent and avid reader and enjoy reading almost anything given to me. Reading comes naturally to me just like breathing comes naturally to everyone and I get very upset if in any way I feel any hindrance towards pursuing my favorite activity and I feel as if I am being robbed of everything I have. By hindrance I did not mean a temporary obstruction but something dangerous enough to not let me read at all. This is a fear that resides in my mind just like the fear of going bankrupt or homeless resides in a poor person's mind. I might seem to imply by this that books are equivalent to wealth to me and by sharing about my weakness about books I may invite non-scrupulous people to take advantage of my precious possession but all of this seems over-dramatic as my wealth is nothing but my passion for books and nothing can be more innocent, safe and pure than this.
I am personally waiting for that moment when I can say that a particular book has changed my perspective or my way of living forever bringing with it numerous advantages just like many people have been heard to be saying the exact words. I wonder how only a book can change how a person thinks. If that actually has to happen it has to be associated with a practical experience as it is well known that bookish knowledge does not make man well educated. Nevertheless, books do give insight into what a great personality who writes the book actually thinks and helps us to get inspired. The advantages that I have had with books are still just limited to help improve my analytic skills that come with the skills of comprehension and a little bit of addition to my vocabulary which are very much but natural skills to be acquired by this activity. But to say that a book has affected my life or the way I think is utterly out of question as still I am just a very less experienced youth who reads books as way of entertainment and relish the common joys of easily recognizable stories and nothing beyond than that. But I can predict that if at any stage of my life I do get experienced I shall surely go after a book, whether fiction or non-fiction, which helps me to shape up my ideas and perspectives according to my situation and understanding of the compliance between my life and what is implied by the written words.
Finally, I should say that I do not consider myself as the only passionate reader on this planet as there are many who have excelled in the field of reading as well as writing but I would like to enter the competition though because it will be almost equivalent to 'following where my heart leads me'. But till then I am just another person with reading as a hobby and will continue to bury myself in the most wonderful books till it's possible and consequently will never find myself alone.
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